DON’T DRINK TOO MUCH! If you think this is a joke – Not!What is the old saying, “Nothing like a reformed prostitute”?
Preach, preach, preach. Wasn’t in that profession (I might be rich:), but I can relate to drinking too much and throwing away a period of time in my life that has tortured me for thirty years after. I thought I was in control. I thought I was just being social. I thought I needed a drink or two to relax and be comfortable and with the crowd. I thought a drink would take the edge off of the stress of the day. I thought since it was legal and “pushed” there could be nothing wrong with a glass of wine at night, or a drink. I thought, I thought, I thought.
Then I drank, I drank, I drank. I never went to AA. I was never a smelly drunk laying on the street with an empty bottle in my hand.
I was a “functional” drinker. I could partake and still take care of all my responsibilities and my children and husband. HOWEVER…..there is no such animal. You can fool yourself, but you will not fool your children, or your family and friends.
Alcohol is a seductive and nasty drug. It will take you down over and over again. ”Methinketh thou protests too much” Shakespeare wrote…..you know you can handle it. This doesn’t apply to you.
Okay – I am being brutally honest about myself because I CARE. Brutally honest because I found, thirty years later, there were still things I did not remember because of blackouts. I am lucky to be alive. I am blessed. I do not want you to go through the same hell for a drink!
I wrote this about fifteen years ago, and would like to share it with you. REAL STRESS MANAGEMENT does not include a drink “because you need it to relax”. That is a lie and in the long run it will take charge and it CAN ruin your life. Think about it. Great goals are never easy. But from experience I can tell you – absolutely worth the effort! God bless.
You’ve been my friend for over thirty years. Still, we teeter between love and hate.
You were with me for the good times. You were with me when I was down or in pain.
You were my friend when I was lonely and felt I had no other friend.
You gave me courage when I felt insecure, you made me forget.
You’ve been with me to heaven’s gate and then to the gates of hell.
It seems you’ve always been near, within my reach.
At times I hated you, but just when I thought you were gone for good, little by little,
You subtly sneaked your way back into my life.
You’ve always had your way with me.
You, my treacherous friend sometimes made me turn into someone else, a monster.
You made me seething with hatred and anger.
You made me think I wanted to kill myself.
You stole my will.
You made me see from a perspective that was not my own.
You sucked the life from me and yet I found myself calling on you again and again!
You invaded every area of my life, took me up and then dropped me down again.
You usurped my energy and spirituality.
You took my creativity, my intellect, and my motivation to be me.
When we parted you still affected my days and nights. I thought I needed you.
You almost killed me more than once with your reckless and distorted control.
You lure me into that altered state of consciousness, to be drunk.
To sleep the perpetual sleep, never perceiving reality.
Never to see the true shining star from within.
You are NO FRIEND OF MINE John Barleycorn. You are alcohol, the devil in disguise. You and your associates will not steal my life again. I vow you will not win.
You are socially acceptable. You are legal. You are NO FRIEND OF MINE!